Today is a new day.

Its a new day in a new year in my new life.

I am trying to make the most out of it, trying to make myself see that I can change- grow. It's hard though, constantly battling with the negative voice in my head telling me that I can't, that I shouldn't. There are so many things that I want and even more standing in my way. As an educated woman, how is it that I can't seem to succeed? I really want to, I want to overcome my illness, I want to get a career, and I want to start a 'grown-up' life with my partner, but the obstacles are overwhelming, mostly because they are in my head. I feel like I will indefinitely fail, I feel incompetent, and thus I am. However, I will continue to argue with myself until the truest form of myself can flourish, but it is exhausting. Today I vow to withstand the challenge, I will continue the fight, and I will believe that I can. This may just be the most fundamental part of change- the belief in its possibility.

Sincerely yours, Emma